So, in the last article, I talked about my triumph. 1000 classes, turning my life around in an entirely new direction and making a huge amount of progress. I changed so profoundly for the better, and I am so proud of myself.
In the Raz Chen school of thought, victories make you comfortable, and his training is all about getting out of your comfort zone. It’s fine to celebrate briefly, but then the party must end and you have to get back to work. Any coasting on victories is a set-back. Life doesn’t stop moving. If you aren’t progressing, you’re stagnating or regressing.
“So, what’s my next challenge?” I asked. I was hoping he’d say I need to write a brilliant book on Krav Maga, or compose some songs. You’d think after two years of training, I’d know better.
It came down to one word. Weight.
Weight? Oh, he must have misspelled it. Surely, he wants me to wait. To relax, to coast on my victory and enjoy myself.
Yes, I’m aware that sounds nothing like him and is completely anathema to everything he stands for. A girl can hope, right?
For the first time, I was glad for social isolation so I was spared the eye-roll at my delusions.
No, he meant weight. I had made a change from zero to one. Now, it was time to start an even more difficult goal, and go from one to two. I’d need to really change in the same drastic way, and I’d have to start off by doing it alone.
I’ve started and stopped so many times, but Raz wanted this time, to take it on with the same devotion I did when I came to Krav Maga. I refused to give up, and I fought hard for every step. I pushed through every challenge. I wasn’t the most talented, but I was the most determined and I got it done.
Now, it was time to restart that process with a new goal. It means taking measurements (I’d rather do burpees than go on the scale) and being very disciplined.
Now, I understand diets are problematic. I don’t think weight loss is a goal in of itself. Being skinny isn’t “better” and this isn’t about fat-shaming. I am aware of the issues associated with this, and I am not suggesting anyone else follow my path.
This is a process I’m doing with the consultation of a fitness expert who also has my best interest at heart. I know people say that about their trainers, but after two years, I think I know the measure of a person. I trust Raz, and I know what he is saying makes sense and that he wants the best for me.
I really have no argument for why he’s wrong besides “I love cake!” which I am aware is a bit childish. Even if I ate healthy and didn’t lose a pound, but just improved my health and fitness, that would be enough.
So, for my next 1000, I have two major goals.
- Live a healthy life, and reduce my sensory-seizures and my depression
- Get my G-rank in preparation for teacher certification. Yes, I know, rank isn’t everything, but goddammit, I want that patch so badly. And yes, I’d like to be able to take Fit to Fight and not be winded in class after running.
In order to truly progress and achieve my goals, I need to reduce my body-fat, build up my cardio and strength and improve my nutrition. It’s what is holding me back from having the success my hard work should earn me.
It’s like fighting with one hand behind my back. It is possible, but removing the added disadvantage would accelerate my progress.
I’ll be sharing my story publicly because honestly, this terrifies me.
Of course, starting Krav Maga terrified me in the same way and here I am today.
I’m taking tomorrow to plan my meals for the week. Any tips from the audience on the process?